Thursday, September 7, 2017
Listen to what you already know
Now I need to follow its guidance.
So I called the show and I basically said, "Hi Marie, can you please tell me why my sister and stepmom hate me so much and why I feel guilty distancing myself and why I am afraid that my dad and brother won't understand and think it is all my fault that family is not the way it should be?"
I already knew the answer.
I needed her to tell me it was okay to not work at a relationship with them. I needed her to tell me I was not a bad person for giving up on what I think a family should be. I needed her to tell me I was not horrible even though they don't care to have a relationship with me. She did tell me all of that and I instantly vowed to really listen to myself. I have asked energy workers for years, what should I do? who am I? can you tell me my purpose? I have gotten some wonderful, beautiful, healing help and advice through the years. It is time, though, for me to help myself. I am smart. I have a strong intuition. I need to do the work to be able to guide myself. I already know what that work looks like. It is quieting down. It is journaling. It is staying in a high vibration. It is saying sweet things to myself. It is redirecting my thoughts when they are not supportive or helpful.
It is knowing that I am extremely empathic and taking the time to separate my feelings from others and realize when I feel guilt, sometimes it is not REAL. It is guilt release training with breath and loving myself and TRUST. Trust myself and the Universe.